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Thursday, September 07, 2006
Lor Suo....
Err..actuli i dun noe wat to write in my blog...cos most of the time i thought of blogging is when i'm depressed. but i dun wan my blog to be full of unhappy things..the last two things i wanted to blog abt was abt my feeling to my career/future and greenridge.
Till now, i still will envy my frens who is studying in uni now...mei jus told me recently that she think she saw simying at nus. so good...she reali lihai lor...sec1 study normal, but manage to gt to express stream, n now even smarter than me...actuli stm i wonder, my results r not that bad, n i can k books ar...but y i dun c any 'bright future' in my life...did i reali made the wrong choice? i dun reali c any prospect in DT..it's like doin the same things almost everyday...n the work so xin ku, so many hazards but the pay normal only...sum with diploma even earn more ar...for those who like DH, lucky lor, at least when the act is out, they can switch job...but i find DH even chimer leh..i dun noe la...i'm already 20 yet i'm still clueless wat i want...n all i noe is to grumble grumble n grumble...i reali dun like my character...low self-esteem n worse still, like to stress myself by comparing with others...haiz...i dun hav a goal in my life..n i jus live becos i'm living now...
In the end also write sad things...actuli i hav mixed feeling toward greenridge...no, mayb i shld put it this way...i already sterotype greenridge as stressful environment with unhelpful n quiet mentor...in fact, things r not as bad la...i mean wk is wk lor..both sch the cases also juz as jialat la...stm MS ho do tok to me la...i guess i'm juz too dependant, so i get upset when Ms HO didnt reali help me...i mus change my attitude...if not, v xin ku, think will stay there for quite long..though i dun mind changing environment..in fact i dun mind working alone leh!!...but now say say only, later when hpb reali post me, sure stress to death..lolx
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